Not So Much Rambling

I've just realised there's a much more concise way to express my feelings on all this, and make it clear that I'm not just accepting that XY wants sex with other people and just going along with that to keep him happy.

Say that someone were to offer to grant me a wish now, and say that either they could stop XY wanting sex with other people, or they could guarantee me good sex with other people. I would definitely, without a shadow of a doubt, ask for the second one.

I hope that clarifies things.

I'm not bothered by the fact that XY wants other people. I think that's the way it should be, and if people in a relationship don't want other people to some extent then either they're lying to themselves or it's probably a pretty unhealthy relationship. My ideal relationship would involve sexual experiences with other people. What I'm bothered by is how I'll feel when he's doing all the things I wish I could do. That's the problem I want to solve.